Resurrection by TwilightMomofTwo

Resurrection by TwilightMomofTwo

Official Summary:
This is an AU story, based on a 'what if' suggestion handed to me by one of my readers, Kzintikiller.

After the kiss at the tent, Edward's heart is already cracked, though his love for Bella leaves him no other choice than to forgive her for it. What if the 'Night of Tears' was too much for Edward to handle? What if that night had convinced Edward to be noble and put his heart's deepest desire aside to let Bella be happy with Jacob?

In this story, Edward leaves once more. He becomes a nomad, roaming the wilderness, lonely and broken, having given up his one and only love. This is a story of growth, of adversity, of forgiveness and of the resurrection of a once-in-a-lifetime love.

Review:
This is a very different story. I find most stories end very predictable and leave us all with a “fluffy” feeling. I say, what is a story without a little angst?

Well, here is a little taste of what could have been. How would Twiaddicts have reacted if Edward left a second time? This time to allow Bella to be with Jacob because Edward believed that Bella was staying with him not out of love but out of gratitude.

If you have ever wondered this, I know I have, then this is the story for you.

The prologue is a simple yet emotional roller coaster where Edward tells Bella that he is leaving. It starts with a letter from Edward to Bella after Victoria’s death when Bella tells Jacob that she is choosing Edward.

I deeply apologize for breaking my promise to never leave again, but it is unbearable to know that I am the cause of so much pain. Your tears last night broke my long-dead heart, knowing I was the reason you cried so desperately.

But through them and in them, I have found the strength to do what I should have done so long ago.

I cannot let you give up your happiness for me. I cannot justify claiming you for myself when giving up Jacob brings you so much anguish.

The tears that follow are why Edward believes that Bella truly wants to be with Jacob.

She had cried for hours while I held her pressed against me, my arms gently supporting her body, as she lay in my lap. I had driven her home after finding her in her truck on her way back from her visit with her friend, who'd been badly hurt fighting the newborn army.

The mongrel. The bane of my existence. The thorn in my side, the roadblock to my happiness. The teenage wolf-boy who's only intent was to take Bella away from me.

In the letter he tells Bella to please remain in contact with his family as they love her as much as he does.

The story then shifts - Edward goes home and tells his family about his decision. Edward arrives in his bedroom and destroys the entire room; the bed that he and Bella slept in included.

It was a fickle fate that had put me in Bella's path eighteen months ago, a malicious hag of chance, of happenstance. Though I should have known better from the start, it had made me believe, truly believe that with Bella was where I was meant to be. I'd fought for her, reached out and taken her for myself, believed that she would be mine. I'd allowed her to change me in ways I'd never thought I could be changed; she had resurrected the human in me, buried so long ago.

Alice tries to tell Edward that he is wrong and that she can see Bella still loves him. Edward, however, is too blinded by his emotions to truly listen to Alice.

Edward’s family each has a different reaction to the news that he is leaving. Ultimately, each of Cullens tell him that Bella is still in love with him. Carlisle challenges Edward’s motives, seeing them as childish, but in classic Edward style he responds,

“I'm afraid that she'll forgo her own happiness because she thinks she has to stick with me, in gratitude of what we've all done for her, when we risked our lives, fought the newborns, eliminated the threats to her life. I don't want her to stay with me because of some misguided sense of obligation. I want her to want me. I want her to marry me because she loves me, because she can't live without me, because even contemplating a future without each other is painful misery. And right now, I don't feel that she wants me that way."

Edward’s sincere reaction pacifies Carlisle enough to tell Edward that he is always going to be welcome back.

Edward however believes: Life, love, meaning – over.

Bella awakes in the morning totally clueless to what has just occurred. Like the typical Bella, she leans on Edward to comfort her as she deals with her emotions. However, Edward is not there.

I had cried for hours after leaving Jacob's house, but letting go of him, the pain in my chest, along the fissure line of my heart, was finally bearable. I was so grateful that Edward had stayed with me last night, holding me quietly, offering comfort and letting my tears fall where they may without complaint.

I stretched languidly on the bed, my hand reaching towards the hard body I expected next to me. Usually, by now, he'd have pulled me into his arms for a kiss. I rolled to my side and opened one eye to peek, but didn't see him beside me.

Unknown to Edward were her true feelings.

I knew now more than ever that with Edward was where I wanted to be, needed to spend the rest of eternity. There had never really been a choice. I was his from the moment we had met. We were soul-mates in the truest sense of the word.

As Bella reads the letter that Edward had left for her, her entire world begins to fall apart - all over again. Guilt over her letting her emotions cripple her as she reads his words threatens to overtake her sanity. Edward had no idea how she truly felt about Jacob.

I had used Jacob as my personal sun to light up the darkness without Edward in my life. I had started to spend time with Jake as a means to an end.

Amongst a confrontation with Charlie, almost everything that Bella had been hiding from him came to light and Charlie called Jacob to come to the rescue.

Jacob is angry that Edward left again and tries to explain to Bella that he is there because he isn’t going to let her fall apart like before. Bella however will have nothing to do with Jacob. Her guilt over her reaction over their kiss spurred instant anger when Jacob tried to ask why Edward was leaving again.

Apparently, he was that stupid. His face contorted in rage. "I don't understand you, Bella. He's gone – don't you get it? He left you. He doesn't want you. I almost bought the little lies in the tent, when he pretended how much he loved you, telling me all about that shit he pulled last fall, leaving you because he thought that was best for you. He was right, you know... he should have just stayed away. Too damn bad he can't get it right." He was sneering in my face. "Filthy bloodsucker. He leaves, he comes back, he leaves again. Make up your mind, why don't you." He leaned down towards me and his arm flew out to grab me by the waist, pulling me to him, crushing me against him. My braced hand pushed powerlessly against his chest.

Jacob was so angry that he phased into a wolf in front of Charlie. Now they had to explain the entire Wolf story to Charlie; which in turn led to the reveal of the existence of “blood suckers”.

Seth glanced at Jacob who glanced at me. The unspoken question hung in the room. What do we do now?

"Well, Charlie," Jacob said finally, with a heavy voice and sorrow in his tone. "There's a reason for us to change into wolves. It's to protect our people from the... cold ones."

"What are the cold ones?" Charlie asked immediately. I held my breath.

"Vampires," Jacob breathed.

Charlie let out a laugh. "Oh, come on, Jake. Vampires? Is this some kind of joke?" He looked at me, and I was unable to hide the truth in my eyes. He noticed it instantly, and I saw the comprehension wash over his face. "Bella? Is this true?"

I didn't move. I couldn't move. Seth sighed helplessly next to me. Jacob looked at me, an apology in his eyes.

So this little review will leave you wondering about several things.

1. Where did Edward go?
2. What was Charlie's reaction to the revelations I just discussed?
3. Did Bella and Jacob end up trying to have a relationship?
4. And for a little extra: Alice...what part will she play in this fic?

I am evil I know, but this fic is truly worth you reading and reviewing. The author has responded to everyone of my reviews in a very positive and friendly way.

If you like a little angst in your life, this is one fic that you should read. Enjoy!

Author Interview
How did you come up with the Title of your Fic?
The whole story line centers around the mess Bella and Edward have made of their relationship, with his leaving in NM and her unwillingness to consider Edward's feelings in the aftermath when she kept running after Jacob. After Edward leaves again, and they are reunited at the end of the first arc, they have both come to a better understanding not only of each other but also of themselves. They've been given a chance to resurrect what they had in Twilight and build on that foundation. So - the title was actually quite an easy decision.

Do you have any writing rituals? What is your writing ‘process’?
I wish. No, I write when I have time and when inspiration strikes. I have a loose outline of what points I want to bring across, but oftentimes, the characters run away with that outline and do what they want. I write what I feel, trying to think like the character and imagine myself in that situation. Edward's voice is louder than Bella's and I think that especially in the early days of my FF "career", his character spoke to me more than any other. Writing is also cathartic for me. There's something to be said about getting lost in these characters and in the story I'm trying to create and leave RL behind for just a while.

What made you want to write this story, what inspired you?
The original prompt came from someone who'd been following one of my other stories. He and I had some long PM and email discussions about Eclipse and Bella's coddling of Jacob and the detriment that caused to her relationship with Edward. He and I both abhor the dog for the manipulative, juvenile way Jacob tries to win Bella for himself and for her inability to see him clearly and her neglect in realizing what hurt she is inflicting on Edward. The fact is that Edward doesn't have a choice - the mating bond is in full force and his nature doesn't allow him to NOT love Bella. He's bound to her for all eternity and completely at her mercy. My friend provided the prompt - What if Edward drew the wrong conclusion during the night of tears? What if that was what broke the camel's back? It didn't take me very long to jot down an outline for this story after that. He's credited in the prologue and one of the biggest supporters that I am honored to have. He's my sounding board when I'm stuck and he's reviewed every single chapter. Edward needed to have a voice. There was so much damage done in Eclipse, none of which was fully resolved or ever discussed afterwards. This story gives him that voice, or so I think.

What was your main inspiration for your lead characters?
I think my characters are fairly canon. I draw a lot on Midnight Sun when I portray Edward but I've also allowed him to 'grow' a little emotionally. When we first meet him in Twilight, he's somewhat stunted - a typical teenager, stuck in his ways, despite the wealth of book knowledge he has amassed and the multitude of minds he has listened to over the decades. He's always on the outside looking in, never fully included in his family, melancholy and self-loathing to a fault. When he meets Bella, he's railroaded by her scent, to the point where he does not realize that he has found his mate. Despite opinions to the contrary, I fully believe in the vampire mating bond as instantaneous, involuntary and irrevocable. The fact that Edward feels protective towards Bella before even having met or spoken to her on her first day when she sits beside Jessica is to me a clear indication of the instantaneous nature of the mating bond. Her scent railroads him into ignoring the pull, and then fighting it, even after he saves her from Tyler's van. My story builds on that belief. As for Bella, she needed a good dose of reality. Her low self-esteem, as evidenced throughout Twilight to the beginning of NM when she immediately believes Edward's lies, only follows her into Eclipse. From the start, she refuses to allow Edward to give her anything of value, thinking that she has nothing to give back, when all Edward wants is to make her happy. I also think that part of why she acts so callously in Eclipse is because she still harbors the belief that he might leave again, that he is not fully committed to her. A part of her also subconsciously wants to punish him for leaving her. All these points are brought up in the story and are part of the character development.

Which fanfic authors inspire you the most?
Sareliz and her story DESS (we share the fundamental idea of the vampire mating bond), Bookishqua and Cullenary Coupling (though her snark is much better than mine) and Drotuno (Angel series). I also have a very close relationship with Bella's Executioner and ConfettiRainfall, both of which I consider very good friends, and who have been a great sounding board for this story and others.

What Fics do you reread often?
Drotuno's Angel series. I cannot get enough of that Edward.

If you could pick a Fic universe to live in, which one would you chose?
I'd like to be Bella in the Angel series. She kicks ass and that particular Edward is my all time favorite. Lolashoes' LYLS and ALE universe is a close second.

When Fic diving what do you look for; Humor, Angst, Slash, Canon?
I don't usually dive. Most of the new fics I start come from Twitter recs, often from sites like this one. I also use the TwiFicDataBase quite a bit when in need of something new to read. I normally prefer E/B AU vamp/human stories to AH but there are tons of awesome AH stories available, a lot of which have made it onto my faves. Most of the stories I read are canon couples, though occasionally, I indulge in a little E/Jas slash or the M/F/M variety. I like stories with good character development, believable characterizations and somewhat realistic background settings. Angst is good if it's not used without reason, and I love snarky characters that speak their mind and have a sense of humor.

When you aren't writing which fics are you reading right now?
That's a long list. There are a few stories I drop everything for. She gives me Religion, Secret and Lies, A Thousand Leaves, Dear Mr. Masen, anything written by Windchymes and SydneyAlice. There are stories I've been following for over two years, ever since I stumbled over fanfiction and never looked back.

Are you in the closet or do your RL friends and family know about your love and obsession with all things Twilight?
I'm pretty much in the closet, with a few toes peeking out. Outside of my husband, not a lot of RL people know what I do in my spare time. I like it that way. It's a very personal journey for me and I often prefer the anonymity of the penname. That's not to say that I shy back from inviting like-minded folks I meet online into my RL, or that I portray my personality differently. What you 'see' is what you get. I don't pretend to be anyone else, I just tend to keep my obsession to myself in RL. It blends on occasion though. ConfettiRainfall lives just a few hours away and has a standing invitation at my house which she uses at least once every three months. There are a few people in RL that know I'm "one of those Twilight-obsessed" people, but they do not know how much time I spent with Edward and Bella. And that's okay for now.

How were you introduced to the fandom? Do you remember which story was the first you read?
After reading the books over and over again, and finally stumbling into fanfiction, the first story I remember reading was Crescents by One Deranged Scribbler. It's still posted though not finished. It obviously snow-balled from there. :)

If you were stranded on Isle Esme, which two Twilight Saga Characters would you want with you?
Edward and Jasper, assuming that I'd be a vampire too. If I were human, Edward and Carlisle.

Do you have anyone that you'd like to thank for helping and supporting you through this fic?
Bella's Executioner, ConfettiRainfall and Kzintikiller for their support and encouragement. Caius09 for jumping in to preread when I need a 2nd opinion. IcarusToSun for being my biggest cheerleader/pimp. Love those gals. And really, anyone who's giving my story a chance by reading and reviewing, rec'ing it to others and sites like this one that give us authors the opportunity to promote ourselves.

Do you have any other projects going on? Any planned for the future?
I have two more WIPs. Transcendence, which is a retelling of Eclipse in EPOV and currently on hiatus until I find his voice again, and Back To You, an AH story collab with ConfettiRainfall that came out of a contest submission on TWCS (which we won) and has since expanded into a full story. We write our chapters sitting next to each other so progress is slow. I have also written but not yet publically posted a new story called Runaway Train, which is a NM AU. The first chapter was my contribution to the Fandom4Tsunami compilation and I'm working on the 2nd chapter for the Fandom4Storms compilation. Neither will post until after those comps groups give the go-ahead, and the time I devote to it will be minimal until after I finish Resurrection. It's my outlet when I feel the need to write heavy angst which doesn't really fit anymore into Resurrection at this point.

Is there any information that you would like to share that was not already covered?
I'm on Goodreads - please feel free to friend me. I love playing WwF - invite me to a game. :)

Any additional information you would like posted?
Thank you so much for the opportunity - it is very much appreciated! Happy Independence Day!!

THANK YOU!!!!

Thanks for reading,
Jason @jaydogrut
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I Want It Painted Black by SaritaDreaming

I Want It Painted Black by Saritadreaming

Official Summary
Izzy Black *Bella* is a bad girl with issues. Edward Cullen is the vampire that brings it all down in an inner battle between darkness and light. He'll go to great lengths to melt her frozen heart. WINNER DARKELLA'S DARKEST TEMPTATIONS M themes/LEMONS

Review
What if Bella found out about vampires before meeting Edward? The author takes a different approach to Twilight with this fic. She makes you think and has a way of really attaching the reader to the characters. The story has been nominated for many awards and has won several.

If you’re a fan of weak and innocent Bellas, this is not a Bella for you. Izzy Black is a tough cookie especially armed with her Smith & Wesson rifle. She can handle herself and is convinced she needs no one. We first meet Izzy on an abandoned street in Port Angeles. She is approached by a gang but unlike Twilight where her knight in sparkly skin saves her, Izzy handles things herself. We eventually learn what has Izzy so blocked off as she enters Charlie's, no, her, house.

“The pain started rolling in like a freight train...images flying at me a hundred miles an hour...I fell to my knees just inside, managing to kick the door shut. My chest tightened, rendering me immobile—God, I just needed to get to my stash! Was it going to be like this every time? No...it must have been those stupid fucks that tried to attack me...bringing it all back. I was assaulted by memories, powerless to stop them from coming...”

Izzy enrolls at Forks High School. She does it for herself, no one else, and is a very smart student. To say she cares about school would be a lie. Izzy is a loner, sits by herself at lunch but quietly observes, searching for her prey. It’s in Biology that she meets Edward Cullen. Unlike Twilight canon, she is aware of what he is and even torments him with it slightly. We eventually hear Edward's thoughts on their first meeting:

”After all, she was hard and rude, with a mouth on her that would make a sailor blush, she would fuck anyone that struck her fancy and she filled her body with illegal and illicit substances.”

Edward feels very protective of Izzy, though he would never dare tell her. Izzy needs no one and is insistent on keeping it that way. Through an unexpected turn of events, a truly sadistic James marks Izzy as his own. When Edward realizes this, he gives up his hidden protectiveness and makes Izzy his mission, his life, and the fight becomes personal.

Izzy is slow to respond to Edward, afraid he will leave her in one way or another. She is constantly at a battle with herself closed off, but secretly pleading for attention. Edward slowly works his way into her space, but not without a fight.

Smoothing my hair back, he leaned in to kiss me and I shied away. "What is it?" he whispered, and I could hear the fear in his voice—he knew something wasn't right. I couldn't look into his golden eyes because I would lose my resolve. "Edward, I need to be alone right now." "Izzy, don't run away. I know you felt something." "Please, Edward. I'll see you tonight?"

Izzy and Edward’s relationship develops slowly but surely through the story. We are introduced to the entire Cullen family and watch and enjoy Edward's dislike of Jake. The battles Izzy faces both internally as well as the everyday hassles of real life. Izzy stays strong-willed and true to her character through the fic. We are only 12 chapters in and Saritadreaming has lemons that will rock your world, Izzy that will make you blush, and as always the gallant Edward.

This is different from many fics I have read. It is dark and twisted but in an awesome way. The author has a way of hooking you and making you care about her characters. This story will leave you wanting more and saying “Just one more chapter and I’ll sleep.” Hope you all enjoy it!

Author’s Interview

1. How did you come up with the Title of your Fic? I like unique titles for stories; I know when I'm fic diving, an interesting title will grab my eye. I happened to be listening to 'Painted Black' by The Rolling Stones when I was still deciding on a title for this story. It just fit with my character, Izzy (Bella), and how dark she is, how often she aligns herself with everything black. 'I want it painted black' sounded like something she would say—she'd want it all black, LOL. She's sardonic, snarky, bitchy and her 'inner banshee' keeps up a constant commentary of negativity.

2. Do you have any writing rituals? What is your writing ‘process’? I listen to music really loudly on my earbuds, LOL. I know that sounds counter-productive, but I find that it focuses me. Usually, I will choose a song that fits the mood of the chapter I'm writing, and I'll play it over and over as I write.

As far as writing process... I have to get in the mood, so to speak. Before I start writing, I allow my characters 'space' in my head for a while—could be a day or an hour—and when they are 'speaking,' then I can write. I see them, feel them. They're alive to me.

Unfortunately, I don't have too many huge blocks of time to sit and write. I'm a wife and mother, I work, I beta for Twilighted and write story recs for TheTwiGirlsNextdoor. I'm a busy bugger. Once I'm on track with a chapter, the characters will speak whenever I have a few spare minutes for writing. If I had to wait for a lot of free time, I wouldn't be putting out much, and I write a lot.

3. What made you want to write this story, what inspired you? This all started with the Darkella's Darkest Temptations contest ('I Want It Painted Black' won first place, voters choice). I saw it as an opportunity to write something darker, something different. We see lots of Darkward—and I love him, too—but this really caught my eye. My Izzy is damaged goods, she's rude and crude, she curses like a sailor and makes no apologies—at least until one very schmexy vampire gets in her face and refuses to let her go.

4. What was your main inspiration for your lead characters? I believe that we are shaped by our circumstances, and I like to shape my characters in the same way in an attempt to bring them to life. This story is my vision of what Bella would have turned out like if she had gone through the horrors set forth in my story. In that way, I see my story as a twisted up Twilight. My Edward is fairly Canon, but he adapts to what is before him. His mate is a damaged human girl that refuses to feel. She hurts Edward over and over again, but he persists until he shatters all the walls around her. Throw in her torrid past with a member of the wolfpack, and a very sadistic James, who pursues her relentlessly, and what do you have then? Well, you'll have to come take a look and see... Smirk.

5. Which fanfic authors inspire you the most? I'm hesitant to name names because I'm sure to forget someone and because the list would be long. I'm inspired by authors that can make me feel what they write. When I read (and I haven't much time for it since I started writing) I want to be transported. Many of the authors that inspire me are what I would call 'unsung heroes.' Authors who are not extremely popular, but that doesn't make their writing any less beautiful or poignant. I'm a champion of the underdog. There are so many awesome fics out there with too few reviews. I tend to read a mix of big name authors and the smaller ones, too. I'm an equal opportunity fic diver, LOL.

6. What Fics do you reread often? I don't reread fics. I barely have time to read because I'm addicted to writing. My main source of reading at the moment consists of beta work for Twilighted and searching for recs for the TwiGirls. I envy those who have hours and hours for reading, to be honest. I can remember many a night staying up until 3 or 4 am reading—now I'm up until the wee hours writing. But I wouldn't trade it for anything because writing is my true addiction.

7. If you could pick a Fic universe to live in, which one would you chose? Twilight, AU. I love vampfic the most of all. AH is okay, but AU w/vamps is my all time fave.

8. When Fic diving what do you look for; Humor, Angst, Slash, Canon? I prefer E/B vampfic, romance/drama. I can handle angst if I know there's a happy ending, but I get so sucked in, the characters are like real people to me. If one of them dies... a piece of me does, too. If a story ends badly, I won't read it, no matter how well it's written. There is only one exception to that rule which was 'Carpe Noctem & Fiat Lux' by queenofgrey. If I was likely to reread a story, that would probably be it. Shhh...

9. When you aren't writing which fics are you reading right now? I read updates as they come in for my faves, and I have a folder full of chapters that I need to catch up on. Again, I have so little time to read for pleasure that I often fall behind. I can't pick a fave at the moment. I'm so afraid of leaving someone out that I adore. I won't do it, and you can't make me!

10. Are you in the closet or do your RL friends and family know about your love and obsession with all things Twilight? Totally in the closet! LOL I even use a penname for my original fics because I'm afraid if I knew someone that knows me was reading it, then I might change what I write. My hubby knows I write fanfic, and he supports my addiction. He gives me time to write, and he buys me magazines about writing, etc. He's the only one that knows. We have an agreement that he can read all my fanfic when I kick off. Until then, he minds his biz. LOL.

11. How were you introduced to the fandom? Do you remember which story was the first you read? As I read BD and flipped the pages back and forth, sure that some were... um... missing... I was outraged to find out that SM dicked out on us. Even PG can be written sensually, but missing pages were abhorrent to me. I waited so long for that moment... then, nothing. Someone on a group told me about Maggie Chambers, who wrote a missing honeymoon scene. I went in search of that, and found the wonderful world of fanfic. The first real story I read was 'Wide Awake.' which I would also reread if I had the time. I just kept diving in from there. Ironically, Maggie Chambers was the one who encouraged me to start writing, so I owe a huge debt of gratitude to her... and by extension SM for wussing out on the love scenes. I might not be writing otherwise.

12. If you were stranded on Isle Esme, which two TwiSaga Characters would you want with you? Edward and Edward. An AH Edward with smoldering green eyes, and a vamp Edward with equally smoldering burnished gold eyes. What we'd be doing on that island... not saying.

13. Do you have anyone that you'd like to thank for helping and supporting you through this fic? God, yes! I first have to thank Sandy who screamed her way through the original IWIPB one shot as I wrote it. I would send her small sections to pre-read as I was writing it. Keye signed on as a pre-reader shortly after the one shot was out. These two ladies pre-read all my stories, help me pick out musical inspiration and are just all around wonderful women and friends.

I also have to profusely thank my beta, Jess (jkane180), for her awesomeness. She knows when to kick me in the ass (such as way back when I was shy about writing the words cock and pussy—look at me now, Jess!) and she's taught me enough grammar/punctuation that I'm now a beta myself. Love her, and anyone who gets her as a beta is one lucky bitch. Big smooshy hugs to Bella Flan for introducing us.

Thank you to Wendy (wmr1601) who has become a dear friend and recently signed on to do beta/prereading work on many of my stories, including IWIPB.

There are a few others I need to shout out to. Katsflowergirls, Paula (popola), Cierra Hill Thomas, Kimi D, Reb, Sonja, Ildira, KNG1986, OTB (Obsessedtwibrarian).... I'm stopping now, but there are many more of you who have supported me in different ways. A special shout-out to Tracey (Vtweetymccn) and Lindsey, along with their awesome crew of EMTs and firefighters, who read all my stories and make bets on them, LOL.

Last, but certainly not least, thank you to all my loyal readers. I'm not the most popular author in the fandom, but I have some really awesome and thoughtful readers. I count myself very lucky, and I appreciate each and every one of you.

14. Do you have any other projects going on? Any planned for the future? The main one, which I'm very excited about, is entering the TWCS Original Fiction contest! I've finally decided to put some of my own original fic on the block. I'd love it if readers would check out my story and let me know what they think of it. It's called 'The Weight of Roses' and can be found here: http://tinyurl.com/6f9ewhy

I'm currently writing several other Twilight stories which can be found on my profile at Fanfiction.net: http://www.fanfiction.net/u/1961871/Saritadreaming My full length WIP stories are 'I Saw You Coming,' 'Broken Windows,' Shattered into a Thousand Pieces,' and 'Speak Now.' 'Speak Now' is my first foray into a mutli-chapter AH story and is a collab with the talented Wendy (wmr1601).

I also have several one-shots on my profile, and I donate outtakes and one-shots to many of the fandom causes such as: Fandom Against Domestic Violence, FoxyFics, FGB for Autism, Fandom4Tsunami and Fandom for Sexual Assault Awareness.

15. Is there any information that you would like to share that was not already covered? There is one thing I feel compelled to say, since I have an audience. There seems to be a growing trend in the fandom of drama, rudeness and general negative fuckery. The last time I checked, we were grown women. I've seen email, chats, and private conversations posted for all to see, friends turned enemies, catty remarks galore... and it really hurts my heart. I love how we all come together for fandom causes, donating stories and working side by side to raise money. That's what this fandom is all about—not being jealous of someone else's success, but applauding it. Helping a less popular author gain more readers or just keeping your yap shut if you don't have something kind to say.

Sorry, but this issue really rankles with me. I abhor all things drama unless it's part of a fic!

16. Any additional information you would like posted?

Banners for IWIPB:

Oh, my God! I just realized what a banner hOOr I really am. I'm listing some banners, but not all.

Banner by Betty Gefecht: http://tinyurl.com/42nnlyk

Banners by Julie: http://tinyurl.com/3bbju4g

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Banner by Dazzled by Jake: http://tinyurl.com/3rhq2ul

Banner by Eva: http://tinyurl.com/4x9e9fb

I have some beautiful banners for my various stories made by some very talented graphic artists: Julie and Eva from FwaR, Betti Gefecht, Lindz, Dazzled by Jake, and I am Kate. Here's the link to my album where they can be seen: http://tinyurl.com/3rzjfdv

Thank you very, very much to the ladies at TwiFicDatabase for choosing my story as fic of the week!

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The Inadvertent Voyeur by FFReaderRW

The Inadvertent Voyeur by FFReaderRW

Official Summary
Although tortured by guilt, Carlisle cannot stop watching Edward from his kitchen window. He feels an indescribable connection to him that takes him years to comprehend. AU Vamp slash. WARNING: Some child abuse is briefly mentioned.

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For those of you who don’t know me, in addition to working as part of the TwiFicDataBase staff, I’m one of the lucky women behind the Vampslash blog/contest. (Shamless plug, I know. It couldn’t be avoided.) So when FFReaderRW submited The Inadvertent Voyeur as a Pick of the Week candidate, I was all over it!

This story features a vamp Dr. Carlisle Cullen and Edward Masen as a human teen. As their next door neighbor, Carlisle is afforded the opportunity to watch Edward quite closely. Half the time Carlisle doesn’t even realize he is watching Edward, he gets so caught up in the young man’s actions that he is unaware of his own.

His heightened senses also allow him to pick up on goings on in the Masen household to which no one else is privy. We get a brief glimpse into a slightly darker Carlisle than we generally imagine when he overhears Mr. Masen’s form of discipline.

“I began monitoring the house from my kitchen window when I was home from work. Two days later I heard the distinct slapping of a strap and a child's pitiful cries begging for forgiveness. It took every ounce of restraint to keep from rushing into their house. I had never felt such hatred for any living creature.

I began planning that animal's demise. I waited patiently until he was alone before confronting him. It was late and he had gone outside that evening to smoke a cigarette. His eyes widened in horror when I suddenly appeared in front of him, growling out his name. With my right arm, I grasped him by the throat and lifted him high off the ground.”

After the not-so-unfortunate demise of Edward Masen Sr., Carlisle becomes a more active participant in young Edward’s life, encouraging his intellect and artistic abilities. Carlisle’s feelings for Edward are chaste and paternal in the beginning. He only wants Edward to be comfortable, safe and happy - it is all he has ever wanted.

Eventually, as Edward grows to physical maturity, Carlisle recognizes that it is not just his favorite human’s mind to which he is attracted... Edward’s subtle flirtations also do not go unnoticed by the good doctor.

An unexpected heartbreak is what finally brings these two together. Carlisle is Edward’s only companion in his deepest time of need.

"She's dead, isn't she?" His voice is rough. His eyes are glassy.

He has made it easy for me. I simply nod. I sit on the table in front of him and take his hands in both of mine. I need to comfort him in some way. My hands are abnormally cold, but he is so numb right now that he doesn't seem to notice. He stares at the waiting room door blankly, as though he expects [her] to walk in any moment. [...]

For several minutes we sit together and he cries unabated. I try soothing him by stroking his back. I have never had to deal with something like this and I'm at a loss as to what to do. His arms are wrapped so tightly around me that if I were human, I would be in physical pain. [...] His face is buried in my neck and I can feel his hot tears rolling down over my collarbone and down my abdomen.

The Inadvertent Voyeur is a beautiful story - a tale of love and loss and bone-deep need. If you’ve never read slash, or you love slash but have been wary of a Carlisle/Edward pairing, please don’t let that stop you from reading this little oneshot. You’ll be amazed at how naturally this pair fits together.

Author’s Interview

What gave you the idea for this story?

We have a young, handsome pool guy come around once a week to clean our pool. He lets himself into the backyard through the gate and one day I watched him as he worked. He had his earbuds in and seemed totally oblivious to anything going on around him.

Are there any fanfic authors that inspire you?

Yes there are many, but for C/E stories I have to say that Pace is the trick (idylchild) is my favorite. Her vision of all things Carlisle is truly amazing. Like her, I cannot believe that after being alone for more than 200 years, Carlisle would choose to change a human male for purely platonic companionship. Two other Carlisle writers that are favorites are giselle-lx and EliseShaw.

What was your main inspiration for your lead characters?

I can’t think of anything in particular that inspired their personalities in this story. It’s simply the way I’ve always imagined those two.

What do you think it takes to make a fic special and stand out to a reader?

The emotions have to speak to the reader. The story can be completely far-fetched, but the emotions the characters feel have to be realistic.

What did/do you find the hardest about writing this story?

I didn’t want Carlisle to sound like a pervert. He would have to be human for that. I wanted readers to see that as a vampire his attraction to Edward was instinctual. Edward was his mate.

Why do you think people should read this story?

I think the story is warm and sweet and, if a reader likes that sort of thing, they will enjoy it.

What cliches do you feel authors should avoid while writing fanfic?

I haven’t been a writer long enough to feel comfortable giving other writers advice.

Do your RL friends and family know about your love and obsession with all things Twilight?

My husband is a Twilight fanfic reader. He understandably doesn’t care for slash, but is completely obsessed with Bella/Edward stories. This is one little family secret that we share. However, none of our other family knows. It’s fun having a secret from them.

Have you got any other projects going on? Any planned for the future?

I am completely committed to finishing my Edward/Jasper WIP first, but I want to write another C/E story afterwards. It will probably be a sequel to this story.

Do you have anyone that you'd like to thank for helping and supporting you through this fic?

Bbeyedgirl has been the best pre-reader and beta ever.

When you aren't writing which fics are you reading right now?

I am reading a lot of stories right now, but I drop everything when Errors and Omissions or Mergers and Acquisitions post new chapters.

How were you introduced to the fandom? Do you remember which story was the first you read?

Like most everyone, I was obsessed with Stephenie Meyers’ books. I read a copy of Midnight Sun on her website and that got me hooked on Edward’s point of view. Surfing the internet for more information on the books, I accidently came across fanfiction. At the beginning, I read the usual Edward/Bella stories. I don’t remember which story was the first one I read. However, I do remember the first slash story that caught my attention shortly after I started reading fanfiction. It was Over The Top by starfish422. I never went back to het stories after that.

Is there any information that you would like to share that was not already covered?
THANK YOU!!!!

Thanks for reading!
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